Waiting

Ok, so now it's Monday and today is the day that she is supposed to REALLY know if the nodules in her lungs are in fact cancerous. I'm waiting...................................

I sincerely do not know what in the hell is wrong with me and WHY this has taken over my thoughts as heavily as it has. I have met her once, just once, this is not my best friend of the last 20 years or something! Yet I cannot shake it. Her sister MaryLou is just precious to me and if she's hurting I feel it in my soul so this is painful and i just want to hear good news for this woman. She's a real sweetheart, a true genuine good person folks, a rarity, so damn it, bad things should not be happening to her.....................

Ok, gonna go off and finish reading my book cause i need to be distracted. I keep checking her blog every 5 minutes and this is bordering on unhealthy insanity.

Keep prayin' people. they all matter.

Alida'

Heavy Heart

Well, I am in no mood today folks.................................

I get the news that my sister-in-law's sister was told she has breast cancer. Gets worse, she is at a minimum of Stage II and beyond a simple masectomy for it was pegged as invasive & aggressive. They found numerous nodules on her lungs and today is the day that a scan will determine whether or not this is in fact Stage II or God help me, Stage IV, of which there is no cure. I don't know what to say, my heart is very heavy for this woman.

My sister-in-law is one of the best women I know. Well technically she is not my sister-in-law because her and my brother are not married YET, just a matter of time. I just love this girl and consider myself very blessed that my baby brother was lucky enough to find such a good person. Watching her twisted with grief over this painful news regarding her sister is gut wrenching at best. I can imagine what she is going through as I just lost 2 aunts this year alone to cancer, but her sister................well.............I can't say I know what she is feeling

I was fortunate enough to meet her last Christmas and she was a doll. Very sweet and funny, instantly made me feel at home and made me comfortable. Not surprising at all, her entire family are just wonderful beautiful people. The father makes me laugh so hard I cry!

I am so anxious to hear how today went for her. It's so odd to me to be this consumed by forthcoming news about a person I met just once. I can't help it and cannot stop thinking about it. I must have prayed 9 times alone today. I just don't want anything terrible to happen to anyone in this family, please God, spare her because it is not deserved..............

I am going to and say one more prayer for good measure...............

If any of you reading this could join me, it would be much appreciated :-)

Alida'

Come on In.........

Hello all, it's me, Anastasia Beaverhausen...................no really.............

At any rate, you may know me as Innamorata, you may know me as LaDiva, hell ya might even know me as Alida' (who knew), but either way, if your reading this you know me (or you will soon wish you do).

I'm blogging now. Blogging. Yup, blogging. I have decided it's not fair to keep the insanity I know all to myself, no. Share. Blog. No one will judge you.

I will write in here whenever the hell I feel like it I suppose. I used to always write to "get the demons out" as my great-aunt used to say, and so, demons are a-knockin' lately so writing it is.

I haven't the faintest idea how to make this look all pretty yet, I will get to that in due time people. I am looking at all these buttons and fonts, text colors etc. sheesh! The pressure! Pouring my heart out on a computer screen isn't enough is it?? Nooooooooooooooooooo gotta make it pretty!

Ok, is that it? Have I officially blogged? I think I have. We'll see.

~Anastasia Beaverhausen~Innamorata~